Thursday, June 29, 2006
totally screwed up. i have nv felt like this b4, this is also the first time i screwed oral till lidat. n its the fu*king o lvl. i hate myself. had been tryin to supress my feelings all the while in sch but i can no longer do tt nw. i shouldnt be crying for this. shit. i cant friggin stop. i cant stop tinking how badly i had done, i cant stop feeling sad. i cant stop crying. its all wrong. y mus i screw this up so badly. i effing hate myself.
i juz wan to crawl into bed, under the covers n cry myself to slp. i cant. i cant. i have to do geog.i need a hug.
with love
8:24 PM